Run till exhaustion than get up and run again, never look back because looking back is what stops you and makes a person lose focus and fall into the darkness of life.



Friday, November 18, 2005
Yo what's up everyone
Hey ladies and gents how life treating you. Good I hope cause damn life is [pretty sweet over here. I'm jammin to some ludacris while Mel does her hair ... girls I tell ya. Women take forever to get ready LIke really wow .... Anyways I'm just putting this shit up cause k'm bored as hell and figured I would do this for the hell of it anywayz Peace out everyone. Taker Easyn and have a good one,


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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
***The Soulless Lover***
What is this feeling? A sudden rush of emotions envelope me. Love, anticipation, anxiety, joy, sorrow and confusion. I don’t know what to do with all of these things; this is the first time in my life that I have ever experienced something of this caliber. Yet I feel I have known this would come sometime in my life but I never would have guessed it would be this soon and these feelings would be this strong. I try to ignore them all together and get on with my life but I can’t and the harder I try to the deeper they dig themselves into my soul almost as if they are eating away at it; destroying everything I have worked for in my life. I mean everything was perfect until I felt these kinds of emotions, I was just at the peak of my success and all of a sudden I am back at where I started, so deep into the ground that I can barely see the light pierce the ground. It is too much for myself to overcome again, I lay down and close my eyes, allowing these feelings to overcome my body and devour what is left of my soul, leaving me as a lifeless empty shell of a body.

- A Single Crimson Tear Falls To The Sea. The Echo Of The Last Remaining Star Crying Out In Pain. -


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Monday, January 17, 2005
My 3 Libras and Friends Forever
3 Libras - A Perfect Circle

threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back a name in your
recollection down among a million same
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked
right through to see you naked and oblivious and you don't see me
but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a
fallen angel eyes of a tragedy
here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded but i see
through it all and see you
so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy
oh well apparently nothing
you don't see me you don't see me at all


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Sunday, January 02, 2005
Jack and I Remember the Old Days

Jan,02/05


Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

I really miss those days...Back when we played D2 all day and jumped on the tramp

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

yeah man

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

they were the shit

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

I really want that back

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

and everyone was on good terms with everyone

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

and no one was mad at anyone and no had gone through any hard times

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

Yeah I know eh

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

Now it's like everyother day someone is depressed for a good reason

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

Before it was something simple

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

yeah man

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

and in every group there is nothing holding them together but one person acting as a glue

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

lol yeah

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

and now a days everyone is lost in their guy friend or lady friend and nothing matters but being with them and now it seems sometimes that friends are second rate and they don't really exist

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

and everything was just easier as just straight up friends and there were less complications and less ditching people for other people

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

Ah fuck, I know what you mean

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

man I tell ya

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

sometimes you look on this world and see the situation and all it is, is betrayal and lies

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

yeah, It really looks that way doesn't it

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

yeah it does, it's all a contest for everything now. For creating relationships and destroying them both on a friendship level and romantic level.

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

it's all about an image that a person strives for it's all about grades and having fun and who can hurt the most people and who can take what from who and which way and watch them squirm and crawl in hurt and pain

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

Haha, that's one way of putting it!

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

what's another

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

?

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

I don't know, I was just saying lol

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

oh well you're right there are other perspectives

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

haha yeah

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

but w.e I'm getting to far into it

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

and it's not something that needs to be touched upon that greatly but man I would kill just to have one summer like the old days

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

we should try for it this summer, I mean we are done skool and most of us aren't moving right into university anywayz hey

Kendell «Love is just another corporate excuse» to kill without reason 'She's beautiful as usual, with bruises on her ego' says:

we could plan our days around everyone's work schedule and try and make the best damn summer ever

Jack Like joy was something you could touch/ I wrap it around me/ Like a blanket/ It's just you, me and the moon says:

lol indeed



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Wednesday, November 10, 2004
I Don't Feel Infinite - Anonymous

Just for the record everyone, I didn't write this so don't go all "that's so kendell" cause I'll punch you if you do  but enough of that, enjoy.

all drowned now. drowned, but shining

sing me all your bones. all your fears. all your tears. these tears are screams. white. opaque. sweet but fattening. like ice-cream. and the snow blankets and there is beauty in these ashes. burnt sorrows drowning. falling and falling. erasing flaws from the blank page. snow is beauty and beauty is the scariest thing i’ve known. like white. as far as blue eyes see. lost, like other silent times, like other snow men. there is a sadness here that is heavier than air; it lingers with fallen snow and sings of angels. collecting with interest. there is a loneliness here that floats above you. i am no longer in your peripheral vision so go to sleep, like flurry and beauty. the storm is coming. this is nowhere close to calm. your transmission is lost and the static rings in your ears. tell me about the shapes of stars. tell me about your mislaid visions through fog. measure me in perpendicular lines. forty-nine parallels and a vague horizon. this is a bomb threat. you’re warmed up and i’m warm. the snow blankets this. keeps it warm. suffocates it. i’m not torn, i’ve just been pulled through a shredder in the basement of a government building.



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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Dead Celebrity Satus - We Fall We Fall

We fall, we fall
We fall, we fall
We fall, we fall
We fall, we fall

The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

You wanna be a star?
Here's a gimic and a style
To mimic and free clothes to help redesign your image
I feel like the only way I seek fame and worth
Is to kill myself the same week my record hits the shelf
All you really need is a record label budget
Watch the machine voice freedom to the public
Hate it or love it
Watch it or unplug it
Critics disappear - break out the next week's store hit
You're just a puppet on a string
I'm your master
Cut out the singing, you might as well be an actor
I read a chapter how sex sells music
Nobody likes your songs
And got your videos muted
(We fall, we fall in background)
Mixed in the hood for you to trash or crash it
Prostitute music
Selling songs with ass on it
Gasp for breath
Dead celeb passed the test
Music for a living?
I can't ask for less

"We fall, we fall" [background]
The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

Fuck mass appeal
And fuck keepin' it real
I feel I need to take Tommy Matola for a record deal
What would you do for that big contract?
Change your face like Michael?
Be on American Idol?
Black homocidal in each opponants questions
I thought we were musicians not Fear Factor contestants
Overnight stars want credit?
Forget it
Yeah, you went platinum
But we bought your record
Extra-philosophy
Behind the music prodigy
The next best thing since the Motley Crue biography
It's like drugs
Become a shark in deep water
You swim to the mainstream and you might be offered
"We fall, we fall" [background]
You could be a star too with fame and riches
Fuck these opinons of these haters and critics
They can be so cynic
Quick to call you a gimic
You can't tarnish my image
You write it out of your livin'

The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

"We fall, we fall" [background]
The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

We fall, we fall
We fall, we fall

"We fall, we fall" [background]
The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

The harder they come
The harder they fall
The quicker they come
The quicker they crawl
Dead celeb's comin' back
With this brand new track
Here's another taste
Come on swing your battleaxe

We fall, we fall
We fall, we fall
We fall
We fall
We fall
We fall



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Monday, November 08, 2004
Cover of Atmosphere cd
Thewre is no snow today.
there is no rain today.
the only thing on my mind today is sunshine,
and I'm having a hard time faking this smile.

when I found out, i broke down bad.
confused.
is it selfish of me to greive?
crying for someone i don't know.
confused.

i want to go home now
i've been out here for too long.
i want to hold my son
and teach him that it's human to feel sorrow.
even when it's not your sorrow.

this album is deditcated to marissa mathy-zvaifler
and the poeple who knew her and loved her.

this album is dedicated to every friend i have that
i haven't met.

i love you.
safe travels safe return.
- sean (new orleans july 20, 2003)


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Saturday, November 06, 2004
The rules - anonymous

1) girls can say anything that they find a little bit of truth in to not hurt other people

2) sometimes girls know EXACTLY what they're doing

3) sometimes girls like pulling the strings men have to watch them squirm

4) sometimes they can say that they are friends but.... sometimes everyone gets lonely. you're gonna laugh when i say this but holding hands and snuggling may just be a 'im lonely and need someone to hold me' kinda thing



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Tragic - My Farewell
(farewell... rest in peace)
i cryed my last tear drank my last beer i stoped livin in fear knowing I'm going to jail for years,
man cuz it's clear that my last breath is near, i cry to the lord but the devil is the one that hears,
my heads down around my peers, my eyes bleed blood, my saliva is toxic, i get no love,
i hold myself with my hands in my pockets. around my neck is my love lost in a locket, the pain
i got it, four toed is the insane profit. recarnation a joke, but no one can stop it. my lungs punksured
my tunge has no appitite, i stay awake at night, stare at the stars, cigarette after cigarette i light,
just hopein' i might live through this strife. i will give you this knife if you promice me life. whitch doesn't
sound right, im condemed by deamonds, screamin, internal bleedin with a gun plenged in a triger teasin.
this is my soul im leavin, a spoken word in a broken world, garunteeing lonelyness to my chosen girl, as
i slowly wither, ridein on a brothers biter. as my coffin is caried by my brother and my sister. all things
are tragic is wonder and all ya'll in posible mixture ( yah, it is. theres alot of beauty in the world it's just
haven't found it. my farewell. )
the silence eats away at me each day, people say i need to pray but i dont need redemtion, i need a
way to find a ray of sunshine. hopefully whitch i find sometime before i loose my mind, my months are
planted of green filthy crimes, speaking with mimes, seaking for designs that i can buy the time.
profisize, monopolize, sorta ties that keeps me alive. my heart still beats but months ago i died, i've cryed
and i cryed and dont ever think i ever tryed. i lost my pride, on the journy, cant stride, just tryin to survive
mind walkin on a plank, beein stalked on a chase to save a heartbreak. disapointed and creation isnt
what i'm doin but it's what i'm sayin translation. ( cuz i've got nothin to give ) ( uh huh, sing it girl, you
got to do the solo, when you dont think theres gonna be a tomorrow, my farewell, i wanna feel the soul
i want you to sing it for me, right here, my farewell, my my fare
well, nah, i aint over reacting your too jam'd )
your right i am a lozer a full time alcohol abuser, rugged around the edges and i will never get smoother,
my parents told me all i do is take and i think about the shit when i shake, cuz i realize that i'm a big mistake
misplaced and soon to be traced in every member there is a discrace, if i died the question is who would know
and realize it. i'm filled with love and have a good soul, im careing always sharin, i get mad sometines with
nostrls flarein, dispite what you think it's becasue i care. i dont really care to drink or even speak i would
rather just be happy for one fuckin week, but i'm far from it and soon to plumit so this is my farewell buried with
dipresion and i couldn't get above it. i do belive in god so the people who care dont worry. i just realized you cant
see your future with your eyes blury( no you cant, i've been through it and i'v tryed and i've tryed, gotta give up
sooner or later, my farewell, to all the people who really loved me from day 1, good-bye i love you too, we will see
eachother someday in a better place uh huh, uh huh. my farewell, tragic tragity. )


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Monday, November 01, 2004
Dry Cell - Brave
Reach out, nothing’s there I can’t see
Black out, get’s so cold I can’t breathe
Who’s there, sweating though I’m freezing
I’m scared, I’m venting releasing
Rewind, just enough to know what’s
Behind, does anybody know trust
In fact, has anybody seen me
Look back, your life is but a daydream

Satellites’ receiving
Are all my loved ones grieving
And does it matter at all

If I was brave enough to fall
I’d find the answers
Now my back’s against the wall
Forever
Big world and I am feeling small
The slow are faster
And I know I don’t have it all
Together

Today everybody’s slackin’
Within I wish that I was back in
High school where everything’s easy
No cares just childhood teasing
In fact now it gets depressing
Relax everything is stressing
I don’t know if I can take this
But I’m somehow gonna make it through

Satellites’ receiving
Are all my loved ones grieving
And does it matter at all

If I was brave enough to fall
I’d find the answers
Now my back’s against the wall
Forever
Big world and I am feeling small
The slow are faster
And I know I don’t have it all
Together

(bridge-demo version)
What you see is what you get
Must I remind this every sec-
Ond of my life to everyone
Who can’t seem to mind their own

Satellites’ receiving
Are all my loved ones grieving
And does it matter at all

If I was brave enough to fall
I’d find the answers
Now my back’s against the wall
Forever
Big world and I am feeling small
The slow are faster
And I know I don’t have it all
Together


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You are never alone is this suicidal world, there is always someone there to catch if you were to ever fall, always remember that.

Always keep moving never sit and dwell on one thing for too long a time or the problem will eat you alive from the inside and send you into a downwards spiral.

There is someone that loves you more than anything and would be willing to risk their own life for you, never look the other way when your help is needed you never know when you may need their help.

   
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